Saturday, February 04, 2012
sometimes i wonder if there is another me out there.
someone who has a perfect life,
like a mirror.
of what im going through. and in that world.
everything is perfect.
and in that world.
everything is perfect.
where what i want i get.
what i need i have
and in that world. i dont feel sad or lonely.
i dont feel pain and cry.
in that world.
everything is about rainbows and butterflies.
and sometimes i wish that maybe in that world
this is just an illusion.
or this is just a sick torture or punishment for all the wrongs ive done.
but i like to think that in the other world or what they seem to call the otherside.
i may be pretty and skinny and everything i wish i am.
smart and lovely.
gentle and kind.
and all the feelings that im feeling now are just happiness and all these sick feelings just go away.
i just want to be happy.
and i know that maybe this world doesnt exist at all.
but then again, we are all allowed to dream now arent we..
2:40 AM
A Love's
Fool./
Thursday, February 02, 2012
sometimes, in life, you cant always get what you want.
it's usually meeting someone whom comes into your life,
and that person unknowingly takes away your breath.
he or she may be someone you love, is loving now, and yet when they are in the same room as you, or maybe just in front of you, you feel so far away from them.
your heart screams, i love you, i need you in my life.
but something holds you back.
because you know that eventually everybody leaves.
for me, i'm selfish, i'll keep everyone i love with me.
i dont want them to leave.
i cant accept goodbyes.
i hate goodbyes.
i dont like people leaving me.
i feel like a little girl at night.
alone.
lonely.
all alone.
because of my pride.
because of my face and ego.
i let them walk away.
i have so much to say but nothing comes out.
dont go, dont leave me.
these are the simplest words, yet the most difficult to say it out loud to you.
i love you j.
eventhough i dont belong to you now.
i hope eventually i will be yours.
1:14 AM
A Love's
Fool./
Thursday, October 13, 2011
one day, you'll come home, and it will still be the same, cause in life, family never change.
8:39 PM
A Love's
Fool./
Monday, September 26, 2011
this is to my beloved sister Janice.
I miss you.
5:58 AM
A Love's
Fool./
Monday, August 08, 2011
21st birthday is in about 1 day, im turning 21, and at this point of time i wanna say, i thank my parents. for everything, i love my mum my dad, and everyone so much. life is in a mess. a complete mess. i wish i could just fix some of my school stuff. there is so much streessssss. i cannot handle. too mmuchhhh!
2:40 AM
A Love's
Fool./
Friday, June 10, 2011
someday, we will be able to look at the past with a smile.
because it's true, time heal all wounds.
4:23 AM
A Love's
Fool./
Friday, December 17, 2010
i think in life sometimes,
letting go is the best way to forget,
because you will learn to forget once youve learnt to let go.
i felt the earth beneathe my feet,
oh sympathy where have you gone,
im getting old and i need something to rely on
is this the place we used love,
is this the place ive been dreaming of.
12:11 AM
A Love's
Fool./
